It was a good weekend. I ate well, I exercised, I bought new workout shoes. And I had a brownie. :)
I had to work on Saturday morning so I didn't get much of a workout in with Mr. Muscles. Instead I did an hour of cardio and then visited with him about Women in Religion. He's a hoot. He is a minister and preached to me about my faith. He's preaching at a church in a few weeks and I'm going to go see him. I think he probably goes to one of those churches where the women get dressed up and feel the Lord from head to toe and it's so powerful, they shout about it! Sounds like a good time to me.
This afternoon I had lunch at the Cheesecake Factory. I'm sure everyone has been there and knows how extensive their menu is. I chose it thinking I was going to get a salad, but then realized they had a brunch menu and had a monte cristo on it, which is my favorite! I ended up getting some bbq glazed salmon because it was a healthier choice then the monte cristo. But I really wanted the monte cristo. So I felt very deprived. Sure, the salmon was good and I should have been been happy with it, but I wasn't. I got full, but could have cared less. I still wanted that monte cristo.
This is the part that is most challenging to me. How to make the right decisions when the wrong ones taste better. Sure, there's the large amount of money I've invested and that's a big help. But there are some times that it won't matter. I don't want to completely deprive myself for the rest of my life (obviously...I had a brownie tonight) but just a few days ago I was complaining that I am not losing weight. It's so hard. I've never been an alcoholic and I've never been a smoker, but I don't know how losing weight could be easier then quitting either of those things. I've said it before, but it's so true. I still have to eat. I have to make that decision 3-5 times a day. If I was an alcoholic, it's cut and dry. Don't drink. Heal yourself.
I know this is going to be a lifetime struggle, but I hope as time goes by and I start to see the numbers on the scale go down, it will become easier.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Friday, June 10, 2011
More Calories...
In my attempt to eat more calories, I had a small banana for breakfast (90 calories). Then for lunch I had a side salad at a restaurant (150 plus dressing, about 300). I had 3oz of beef burnt ends at 3pm (240 calories). So I had 630 before my two hour workout tonight.
My workout was good! Again I did 30 minutes on the elliptical (1.62 miles) and then we worked lower body. 200 crunches and a bunch of leg exercises. There was one that was pretty painful so I had Mr. Muscles put his hand on my knee while I was doing it and I think he understood. I have so much bone on bone in this darn knee that I feel like there's so much I can't do. But leave it to Mr. Muscles...he came up with different exercises for me to do. :) After 45 minutes of weights I got back on the elliptical for 30 more minutes (1.70 miles). I did 10 minutes of stretches and finally left.
It's a big transition, going from being sedintary during the week to hitting the gym 5 days a week for 2 hours each day. I'm still getting used to it. Tomorrow is another day at the gym and then I get Sunday off. Yea!
After I left the gym I had a serious arguement in my head about what to eat. I wanted to eat healthy because it just feels wrong to eat crap after all that work. But healthy didn't sound nearly as good as Taco Bell or Sonic. So I was trying to talk myself into another salad. But in order to make a salad for dinner I needed to go to the grocery store and really didn't want to. So I drove towards the grocery store, which is in the same direction as Taco Bell and Sonic.
I was sitting at the stoplight to turn onto the street the grocery store is on, which is opposite of Taco Bell. So I won that battle. But the grocery store is directly across the street from Sonic. I pulled into the grocery store, still thinking about chili cheese tater tots when I saw the very first parking spot was open at the store. :)
So thank you God for opening up that parking space and showing me it was MUCH better for me to buy lettuce then get chili cheese tots. I made a yummy salad and I'm guessing it was about 500 calories.
1,130 is much better than the 700 I ended up with yesterday. I'm hoping by eating more calories, it will help me lose some weight. Mr. Muscles keeps telling me you can't burn calories without eating calories. So I'm putting him to the test!
And now, although it's a Friday night, I'm going to bed at 9pm because I have to work out again tomorrow. This new life is going to take some getting used to...
My workout was good! Again I did 30 minutes on the elliptical (1.62 miles) and then we worked lower body. 200 crunches and a bunch of leg exercises. There was one that was pretty painful so I had Mr. Muscles put his hand on my knee while I was doing it and I think he understood. I have so much bone on bone in this darn knee that I feel like there's so much I can't do. But leave it to Mr. Muscles...he came up with different exercises for me to do. :) After 45 minutes of weights I got back on the elliptical for 30 more minutes (1.70 miles). I did 10 minutes of stretches and finally left.
It's a big transition, going from being sedintary during the week to hitting the gym 5 days a week for 2 hours each day. I'm still getting used to it. Tomorrow is another day at the gym and then I get Sunday off. Yea!
After I left the gym I had a serious arguement in my head about what to eat. I wanted to eat healthy because it just feels wrong to eat crap after all that work. But healthy didn't sound nearly as good as Taco Bell or Sonic. So I was trying to talk myself into another salad. But in order to make a salad for dinner I needed to go to the grocery store and really didn't want to. So I drove towards the grocery store, which is in the same direction as Taco Bell and Sonic.
I was sitting at the stoplight to turn onto the street the grocery store is on, which is opposite of Taco Bell. So I won that battle. But the grocery store is directly across the street from Sonic. I pulled into the grocery store, still thinking about chili cheese tater tots when I saw the very first parking spot was open at the store. :)
So thank you God for opening up that parking space and showing me it was MUCH better for me to buy lettuce then get chili cheese tots. I made a yummy salad and I'm guessing it was about 500 calories.
1,130 is much better than the 700 I ended up with yesterday. I'm hoping by eating more calories, it will help me lose some weight. Mr. Muscles keeps telling me you can't burn calories without eating calories. So I'm putting him to the test!
And now, although it's a Friday night, I'm going to bed at 9pm because I have to work out again tomorrow. This new life is going to take some getting used to...
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Finally...
I got to see Dr. Rapley today who told me my knee is fine...well, relatively speaking. I have no new damage. So that's good news! But why has it been hurting? Because my IT band is super tight. Okay. I can deal with that. I need some serious stretches and wouldn't you know it, Mr. Muscles can help. So Dr. Rapley printed out some physical therapy orders that I gave to Mr. Muscles tonight.
Monday night I walked the treadmill and it wasn't good to me. Tuesday night I rode the bike and it felt great on my knee but sweet heavens it hurt my butt! So tonight I did the elliptical and did pretty well. I think if I switch between the elliptical and the bike, I'll be golden. :)
As for what I did tonight, after 30 minutes of cardio, I did about 45 minutes of weights with Mr. Muscles. Then another 30 minutes of cardio before Mr. Muscles and I sat down and for 20 minutes of stretches. He told me that if I do them twice a day, he'll guarantee me that I'll feel better within a month. And you know what? I'm going to! I hate feeling like my knee holds me back and I don't want to use it as a crutch not to do something. So hopefully when I wake up in the morning I'll remember what it is he showed me tonight.
And I'm feeling much better today. I'm not as down about the weight gain and the knee pain. Dr. Rapley helped with the pain and my dear friends helped with the gain.
I decided that maybe I'm not eating enough so today I decided to add up my calories. Um...yeah...I'm starving myself. :( No wonder I'm not losing any weight, my body is going into starvation mode. Before 5pm today I'd had a total of 280 calories. A body can not survive on that, certainly not mine. Then for dinner I had a healthy salad (for the 4th night in a row). So I added about 450 calories to my day's consumption for a grand total of 730 calories. Not enough. Especially because I burned close to that in my workout.
So tomorrow I'll be eating a little more. I'm not sure how I'm going to get more food in, but I'm going to try my hardest. The good thing is I am having lunch with some great friends so eating out is always more calories. And I think I'm going to add back in some protein shakes.
What a difference a day makes, right? :)
Monday night I walked the treadmill and it wasn't good to me. Tuesday night I rode the bike and it felt great on my knee but sweet heavens it hurt my butt! So tonight I did the elliptical and did pretty well. I think if I switch between the elliptical and the bike, I'll be golden. :)
As for what I did tonight, after 30 minutes of cardio, I did about 45 minutes of weights with Mr. Muscles. Then another 30 minutes of cardio before Mr. Muscles and I sat down and for 20 minutes of stretches. He told me that if I do them twice a day, he'll guarantee me that I'll feel better within a month. And you know what? I'm going to! I hate feeling like my knee holds me back and I don't want to use it as a crutch not to do something. So hopefully when I wake up in the morning I'll remember what it is he showed me tonight.
And I'm feeling much better today. I'm not as down about the weight gain and the knee pain. Dr. Rapley helped with the pain and my dear friends helped with the gain.
I decided that maybe I'm not eating enough so today I decided to add up my calories. Um...yeah...I'm starving myself. :( No wonder I'm not losing any weight, my body is going into starvation mode. Before 5pm today I'd had a total of 280 calories. A body can not survive on that, certainly not mine. Then for dinner I had a healthy salad (for the 4th night in a row). So I added about 450 calories to my day's consumption for a grand total of 730 calories. Not enough. Especially because I burned close to that in my workout.
So tomorrow I'll be eating a little more. I'm not sure how I'm going to get more food in, but I'm going to try my hardest. The good thing is I am having lunch with some great friends so eating out is always more calories. And I think I'm going to add back in some protein shakes.
What a difference a day makes, right? :)
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Frustrations...
I know my body has been through a lot in the last 3 weeks. But one of the things I was sure would happen was each time I got on the scale, I'd see a loss. And I did the first week after surgery. But not anymore. I keep seeing the scale inch up.
I know I'm eating healthy. Sure, I've had some ice cream that I probably shouldn't have, but not enough to make me gain 4.2 pounds in the last two weeks. Yep. 4.2 pounds. After eating only 700-900 calories a day, I don't understand it.
And today I didn't get to see Dr. Rapley because his office screwed up and scheduled me with the wrong doctor. So now I have an appointment with him tomorrow morning at 9:30.
It's just one of those days when I feel that all the decisions I've made have turned from great ones to questionable ones. So I'm going to bed. And hopefully tomorrow will be better.
I know I'm eating healthy. Sure, I've had some ice cream that I probably shouldn't have, but not enough to make me gain 4.2 pounds in the last two weeks. Yep. 4.2 pounds. After eating only 700-900 calories a day, I don't understand it.
And today I didn't get to see Dr. Rapley because his office screwed up and scheduled me with the wrong doctor. So now I have an appointment with him tomorrow morning at 9:30.
It's just one of those days when I feel that all the decisions I've made have turned from great ones to questionable ones. So I'm going to bed. And hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Sarah vs the Treadmill...
Last night I got home, blogged about my workout and then had dinner. Well...it took about an hour for my knee to share with me how it was feeling; and it wasn't nice. Needless to say, I had to ice my knee and sleep with it propped up on pillows all night.
So tonight at my workout I was a little nervous about the knee. First, I spent a little time with Mike going over some nutrition information. He has never worked with anyone who's had lap band surgery so as we were going over things he'd like me to eat, I had to remind him there are things I can't eat. But he's very understanding and is learning along with me.
He then offered up the treadmill. I wasn't sure I could do it with how much my knee hurts...and I was right. So I got on the bicycle instead. I rode for 40 minutes, or 9.21 miles. After that I worked with Angela, Mike's right hand woman. We did arms, arms and more arms. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to raise my arms high enough to shampoo my hair!
But before that great workout, I was whining to my dear friends who allowed me to go on and on about the disappointment of my knee and my anger at my therapist. Well, my former therapist. I thought I had everything worked out before surgery. Knowing that this journey is going to have some major ups and downs, I thought it was smart to build a realtionship with someone who would be there for me the entire time. But three weeks ago he decided to eleminate his evening appointments. Thanks Dr. Fellows. :(
And one month before surgery I had Dr. Rapley give me cortisone injections in each knee with the hope of the relief lasting a few months.
But instead of having great knees and good mental health, I have knees that bring tears to my eyes when I'm walking up and down the stairs at home and no one to cry to about my frustration. So I guess I'll just use this blog as my therapist. The good news is that blogging is cheaper than therapy. The bad news is you'll have to hear about my feelings all the time.
So tonight at my workout I was a little nervous about the knee. First, I spent a little time with Mike going over some nutrition information. He has never worked with anyone who's had lap band surgery so as we were going over things he'd like me to eat, I had to remind him there are things I can't eat. But he's very understanding and is learning along with me.
He then offered up the treadmill. I wasn't sure I could do it with how much my knee hurts...and I was right. So I got on the bicycle instead. I rode for 40 minutes, or 9.21 miles. After that I worked with Angela, Mike's right hand woman. We did arms, arms and more arms. Hopefully tomorrow I'll be able to raise my arms high enough to shampoo my hair!
But before that great workout, I was whining to my dear friends who allowed me to go on and on about the disappointment of my knee and my anger at my therapist. Well, my former therapist. I thought I had everything worked out before surgery. Knowing that this journey is going to have some major ups and downs, I thought it was smart to build a realtionship with someone who would be there for me the entire time. But three weeks ago he decided to eleminate his evening appointments. Thanks Dr. Fellows. :(
And one month before surgery I had Dr. Rapley give me cortisone injections in each knee with the hope of the relief lasting a few months.
But instead of having great knees and good mental health, I have knees that bring tears to my eyes when I'm walking up and down the stairs at home and no one to cry to about my frustration. So I guess I'll just use this blog as my therapist. The good news is that blogging is cheaper than therapy. The bad news is you'll have to hear about my feelings all the time.
Monday, June 6, 2011
First Workout...
First thing this morning I called Dr. Rapley to tell him my knee is a big ole mess. They made me an appointment to see him on Wednesday afternoon so all day I walked around with my knee out of place...until 3pm when I was walking down the hall and it just popped right back in! I was starting to get nervous about my workout tonight, but my body must have known so it gave me a little help.
I had my first workout this evening. It was really good! I really do like Mike...or as I'll be calling him...Mr. Muscles. I got there and Mr. Muscles put me on the treadmill to get my heart rate up. I walked for 10 minutes at a 2.4 and didn't have my heart rate up enough so he bumped me up to 2.8 and I walked another 30 minutes. After 40 minutes of walking, I got off and started on some weights. Because of my knee issues, I did some ab work. Then I did some leg work, but back of leg muscles so it wouldn't hurt my knee. And then I finished it off with 20 more minutes of cardio. So all in all it was a good workout! I can do alot more than Mr. Muscles had me doing cardiovascularly and weight wise so tomorrow I hope he pumps it up just a little bit.
Tomorrow is more of the same? Totally different? I don't know! But I'm excited about it!
I had my first workout this evening. It was really good! I really do like Mike...or as I'll be calling him...Mr. Muscles. I got there and Mr. Muscles put me on the treadmill to get my heart rate up. I walked for 10 minutes at a 2.4 and didn't have my heart rate up enough so he bumped me up to 2.8 and I walked another 30 minutes. After 40 minutes of walking, I got off and started on some weights. Because of my knee issues, I did some ab work. Then I did some leg work, but back of leg muscles so it wouldn't hurt my knee. And then I finished it off with 20 more minutes of cardio. So all in all it was a good workout! I can do alot more than Mr. Muscles had me doing cardiovascularly and weight wise so tomorrow I hope he pumps it up just a little bit.
Tomorrow is more of the same? Totally different? I don't know! But I'm excited about it!
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Ugh...
I spent a great afternoon and evening at my sisters, hanging out in her pool with Alissa, diving for sticks and rings for like 3 hours! It was a blast, but something happened to my left knee while I was in the pool. And now...it makes this horrible popping noise with every step, it's swollen and it's painful. I just walked through the grocery store looking foolish with my limp. It kinda looked like I was trying to be a pimp! HA!
Then last night as I was pulling into the driveway, my hybrid died. :( Luckily it didn't happen 5 minutes earlier when I was on the highway driving 55mph, but now it's stuck at the bottom of the driveway. A tow truck is coming tomorrow to take it to the dealer where it looks like they'll have it for a few weeks because it's a huge part that broke. And it's a well documented defective part. So much that a class action lawsuit was filed in March against Toyota from a substantial number of Highlander owners. If this part breaks after 100,000 miles, it's not covered and it's a $7,847 part PLUS labor! Thank goodness I only have 60,000 miles on it so I should be good.
However, it means that tomorrow until I get it all worked out with the dealer, I don't have a car. And I'm supposed to start my training with one huge bodybuilder who doesn't accept excuses...no matter how real they are.
I guess I'll call the orthopedic surgeon in the morning and ask him about this crazy knee. Luckily my dad is taking the Highlander to the dealer. And I'll strap on my knee brace, pop some aleve and head to the gym at 5:15! Wish me luck everyone. Actually...pray for me. This isn't the way I wanted to start next week. I wanted to be clear headed and ready for the physical punishment. Instead I'm going to be worried about my knee and transportation.
But I'll get through! Nothing is easy; if it was we'd all be wildly successful, thin and rich!
Then last night as I was pulling into the driveway, my hybrid died. :( Luckily it didn't happen 5 minutes earlier when I was on the highway driving 55mph, but now it's stuck at the bottom of the driveway. A tow truck is coming tomorrow to take it to the dealer where it looks like they'll have it for a few weeks because it's a huge part that broke. And it's a well documented defective part. So much that a class action lawsuit was filed in March against Toyota from a substantial number of Highlander owners. If this part breaks after 100,000 miles, it's not covered and it's a $7,847 part PLUS labor! Thank goodness I only have 60,000 miles on it so I should be good.
However, it means that tomorrow until I get it all worked out with the dealer, I don't have a car. And I'm supposed to start my training with one huge bodybuilder who doesn't accept excuses...no matter how real they are.
I guess I'll call the orthopedic surgeon in the morning and ask him about this crazy knee. Luckily my dad is taking the Highlander to the dealer. And I'll strap on my knee brace, pop some aleve and head to the gym at 5:15! Wish me luck everyone. Actually...pray for me. This isn't the way I wanted to start next week. I wanted to be clear headed and ready for the physical punishment. Instead I'm going to be worried about my knee and transportation.
But I'll get through! Nothing is easy; if it was we'd all be wildly successful, thin and rich!
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